In the Depths

In the depths of my soul, I know the truth. I know who I am in Him and my abundant worth in Him. I know that He loves me more than I can ever comprehend. I know that I am beautiful. I know that I am valued. I know that I am worth everything to Him. In the depths of my soul, I know the truth… but there’s a battle going on.

I daily fight the lies against what I know is the truth.

Some days, I wake up and wonder what it would be like to look like her. Others, I wake up and look in the mirror and all I want to do is crawl back into my bed and not face the world.

Because the world is cruel.

It is constantly telling you lies. “You aren’t skinny enough.” “You aren’t talented enough.” “You aren’t funny enough.” Your hips are too big.” “You aren’t pretty enough.” “You will not succeed.” “He would never love someone like you.” “You’re too outspoken.” “You’re intimidating.” “You don’t quite have it all together.” “You’re not what I’m looking for.” And the list goes on.

I would like to say that everyday I find my total worth in God and that I don’t let the world get to me. But I’d be lying.

I normally try to hold it all together. Make it seem like everything is alright. Act confident all the time. I’m supposed to be the strong one right?

Wrong.

I’m so beyond broken. God loves me anyway.

Even in the depths and in the lows and the valleys and every other possible equivalent to being rock bottom, God is still there, with His abundant love.

Its a daily reminder. I literally have to consciously remember every single day that God loves me despite what the world wants from me.

I may not have the skinniest legs, or the smallest body, or be the ‘right’ height, or always say the ‘right’ things, but HE LOVES ME.

Its a constant battle. Some days I fall short and let the lies of this world consume my thoughts. I wish I could say I don’t, but I do.

But the cool thing is, when I snap myself back into reality and remember the truth, I am consumed with His love all over again. It doesn’t change. He doesn’t change. He lifts me up when I am down and He shows me truth in His Word.

The lies of this world are nothing compared to the power I have in Christ. It is nothing compared to the power WE have in Christ.

In the depths of my soul, I know the truth… but there’s a battle going on.

But HE is the truth.